Does anyone want to write their heart out here?

Well, I want to. Quora is slowly become the place where I show the real “me”.

It’s October 20, 2023 today. Time does fly quick, and so many things have changed for me. If I be honest, most of them are negative.

With time, I am becoming distant from my family. There are days when I fail miserably, all those expectations I have with myself. Just one voice that comes from inside, “I hate myself.”

And please don’t tell me I am not trying. I am fed up with that constant lecture from my parents. (yeah they honestly never stop) Only I know how much it hurts, I have become quite hyperactive and restless lately. I can’t focus and feel agitated and disturbed, all the time.(even right now) I try my best to calm my nerves down by escaping, either through sleep, music or quora. That cup of tea I am addicted to, it’s the only thing that calms me down. I literally never feel like eating. Then I tell myself, whatever the f you are doing just improve. IMPROVE AND WORK HARD. Because you have dreams to achieve, a lifestyle to build. Whatever, I am not here to do this motivating self talk.

I waste a lot of time. I am empathetic by nature, I can’t help myself when I see someone in distress. Even I cry my heart out for others and disturb my mental peace. I want to be more self centered, to be honest.

I don’t know what to write, will continue later.

Dove