Many people say that knowledge is a curse, but isn't self-awareness the one that makes knowledge an actual curse?

The things i could have done had i known i am not mentally challenged. as an intp there was no stopping me. i was always going to seek knowledge. The curse is knowing a thing and not being able to change it. The curse is lifted when you try anyway then stop trying when the realization hits you, that you can't change the thing. You are then free to pursue more knowledge.